Today would've been my dad's 61st birthday. Thus today was a day full of melancholy, nostalgia, and remembrance.
Despite having such a conflicted relationship in the last year of his life, I still miss him dearly and wish he was still alive. Reality is another issue, however, and I have long ago accepted the cards I have been dealt with.
This is a video of one of my dad's favorite songs; an absolutely stirring tune that does justice to his memory (video link):