Be more selfish.
For over a month I have planning for the family to take advantage of the Labor Day Weekend in order to go out and have fun. The original plan was to go to
As a viable alternative I suggested going out to eat instead. Several ideas were floated and then supposedly decided on but they would be scrapped in favor of going to another restaurant or not going out altogether. Throughout the process I was more than willing to go along with everyone else for the sake of trying to find a solution best for all of us. It may not have been my choice to go to restaurant “A”, for instance, but if they wanted to then I would be comfortable with that.
Unfortunately the storm of indecision was leaving me drenched in anger and disillusionment.
Take this morning for example. Last night we all agreed to go Monday to a nearby Dominican joint and that I would call Access-A-Ride Sunday afternoon to arrange transportation. Yet shortly after waking up and getting the phone I was told that everyone else changed their minds and would be going to a Colombian place in
The straw that broke my back was that after arranging transportation to go to
Worse still, I’ve been getting blamed for thinking of others ahead of myself. “That’s always been your weakness,” mom accusingly told me. “You’re too much of a conformist” she tries to rub in my face with.
With all my faults being tossed at me I came up with the obvious conclusion:
Be more selfish.
There are inherent risks with acting in that manner; chiefly, it is of not saying what I mean as well as rubbing others the wrong way.
But at this point I’m just disgusted and upset and disappointed and rattled. If things didn’t work out before then perhaps a different tact will get results.
If not then I’ll revert back.
I don’t care what works as long as it does.
Right now I’m at my wit’s end and desperately want something to work.